Memories of s/v Icarus

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A French version of the SAIL Magazine article I wrote as a 17-year-old resurfaced this week. It was published nearly a half century ago about a voyage I made from Florida to New England in a small wooden boat named Icarus.  Courtesy: Thibaud Deves

I am not one who has ever been comfortable waiting around for things to happen.

Today I am in Langkawi, Malaysia waiting for parts to repair the navigational electronics aboard Flying Fish before I set sail across the Indian Ocean.

Forty-seven years ago, I was also waiting. I was counting off the days until high school ended so I could set sail along the eastern seaboard of the United States in an 18-foot plywood sailboat I owned named Icarus.

My brother Bob joined me aboard Flying Fish on the first leg of this circumnavigation. He was also aboard Icarus for the first leg of that voyage. In 1973, Bob was already in college following a sensible path in life studying marine biology, working on a Chinese vegetable farm, and cultivating a crop of high-potency marijuana. He took time off from his busy schedule and we had a delightful passage together. Some days we sailed offshore, on other days we cruised through the Intracoastal Waterway. At Little River, South Carolina Bob went back to Tallahassee for graduate school (and harvest season) while I took a job as a fish gutter on an assembly line with spirited Low-Country black women who sang while they worked and taught me a few words of Gullah. I was broke and happy, and had all of the pan-fried croaker I would ever want to eat.

It was a notable summer. Secretariat had just become the first Triple Crown winner in 25 years. Former White House counsel John Dean began his testimony before the Senate Watergate Committee. The U.S. bombing of Cambodia ended after 12 years of combat activity in Southeast Asia. But then, like now, I felt insulated from world events. Aboard Icarus, I was lost in the fog–both figuratively and literally.

By mid-summer I was alone on Icarus, transiting Delaware Bay from the Chesapeake to New Jersey. I had no navigational gear onboard and I encountered a fog bank. I am a South Florida boy, born and raised. I had never experienced fog. It was a novelty. I could see the air move when I blew it out of my mouth. But couldn’t see anything else. I could certainly hear things, though. The booming fog horns of ships passing me unseen at close quarters echoed out of the gray nothingness. My intention was to sail toward Cape May, New Jersey while estimating my location by dead-reckoning speed, direction, and time. My charts showed buoys with horns and bells, but nothing made sense to me. I remember the day becoming late. I should have made landfall by mid-afternoon. It was transitioning into night. I’ll turn due north, I thought, and that way I can’t miss the New Jersey shoreline of Delaware Bay. I sailed on through the night. There was no shoreline. Just before daybreak the fog lifted and I finally saw some lights. Land ho? Unfortunately, no.

The lights were from commercial fishing boats trawling the Continental Shelf well offshore of New Jersey. It was calm. I thought I was still in the bay. Instead, I was 35 miles out at sea. I pulled alongside a large trawler and shouted out to a mate on deck, “Where am I?” Soon there was a cluster of crewmen and they tossed me a line and lowered a ladder. Icarus tugged at the end the line like a toy poodle on a leash. “You look like you need food and a bunk,” one of the crew said to me. I was escorted to the captain’s mess for breakfast. The captain walked in, wiped sleep from his eyes, raised a fork to his mouth, then set it it down and looked at me. “Who the hell are you?” he roared. I’m from Icarus, I replied meekly. My boat is tied on rope behind your trawler.

The captain could have called the U.S. Coast Guard and ended the voyage of Icarus at that moment. Instead, after some intense interrogation, he said he would tow Icarus within sight of land and then release the tow line once he was sure I wasn’t going to get lost again. This memory is from so long ago now… but I think I remember seeing the captain’s face soften a little. Maybe it was my youthful naïveté, or maybe he saw something in my face that reminded him of himself. He let loose the tow when I was in sight of the amusement park of Atlantic City. Once again I was alone under sail.

How exciting it was to sail Icarus past the Statue of Liberty, along the shoreline of New York City, under the Brooklyn Bridge, through the Hell Gate passage, and into Long Island Sound. I was full of confidence (somehow forgetting about being lost at sea just days earlier). I was Master and Commander of my little ship–and then I ran Icarus onto a rock in the Stamford, Connecticut harbor and put a hole the size of a basketball through her hull.

I was was sinking. I careened Icarus onto a beach and remembered that a year or two earlier I had crewed on a sailboat race from Florida to Jamaica with Mr. Morgan Ames, Commodore of the Stamford Yacht Club. Help from his club was immediately on hand to haul Icarus out of the water. With his instruction (and checkbook) a crew, including his son, immediately began the necessary repairs. That evening Commodore Ames welcomed me into his magnificent Stamford home. “You’ll stay here,” he said, “and we’ll get you some clothing.” At dinner he introduced me to his family. Then a girl entered the room and he said, “And this is my daughter Bambi.” I nearly swallowed my tongue. I was 17 years old, had been alone on the ocean for weeks, and she was very pretty. I was paralyzed. My mouth finally moved. “B-B-Bambi?” I stammered, “Like the baby deer?”

We were the same age. Bambi showed me around Stamford, introducing me to her friends. My selective memory 47 years later remembers her flaxen hair blowing in the summer breeze. I was enchanted. I had dreams of joining the yacht club, of wearing freshly pressed shirts and a navy blue blazer, maybe even attending a debutante ball! In reality, I was just a wild Florida boy who had suddenly turned up on the Ames family doorstep, dirty, broke, and aboard a homemade boat with a hole in it. Mrs. Ames was having none of it. After a few days she took me aside and I remember her words to me as if they were spoken yesterday. With perfect New England elocution she said, “You should know, Jeffrey, that Bambi already has a beau.”

In quick order, Icarus was repaired and I was sailing again. I will always be grateful to the Ames family for their kindness and generosity, and for the life lessons they imparted upon my young wandering soul. Clearly, I had flown too close to the sun.

At the end of that magical summer I found myself in the storied harbor of Newport, Rhode Island. I put a cardboard sign on Icarus that read: “Send A Kid To College, Buy This Boat.” Somebody did, and all too quickly. Within weeks I was enrolled at the University of Florida. I tried to focus on a formal education but I realized that I was waiting again. Waiting for the next opportunity to set sail.

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As a boy sailor I was given a long lead to chase my dreams. Here I pose with with 18-foot Icarus during a teenage sailing adventure from Ft. Lauderdale, FL to Newport, RI

NOTE: On passages when I have no cell or WiFi signal, I activate a satellite tracking link that shows my daily position, current weather, and includes a few personal thoughts from the daily log of Flying Fish. I will not be able to respond to messages via satellite but I love the idea that you are sailing along with me. If you would like to follow the daily progress of Flying Fish into Southeast Asia and the Indian Ocean via satellite you can click this link: https://forecast.predictwind.com/tracking/display/Flyingfish

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Text and Photography © Jeffrey Cardenas 2020

45 thoughts on “Memories of s/v Icarus

  1. I love this story. The photo too. I wonder what the Jeff of the Icarus would think if theJeff of the Flying Fish. I think he’d be awed and excited for his future.

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  2. Jeff your writing has found a new high! Brilliant reflections, heady and honest. In all the years we’ve known each other on this day I truly know who you are. Thank you for sharing. You make the world a brighter place. Peace my friend I wish I were with you.

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  3. What an amazing passage Jeff! No surprise since you are so articulate with word . And details. Thanks my dear Jeff for such a poignant memory.. I only wish I would have been Bambi… 🥰

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  4. What a great memory! Your telling of your journey down the Delaware Bay and later, the hole in your hull, brought back my terrifying experience when I was heading the opposite direction down the New Jersey coast on my way to the Delaware then Chesapeake Bays – enamored by the sparkling lights of Atlantic City on my starboard, I failed to pay attention to my chart and ran aground on the rocky shoal that comes way out into the ocean at that place. The pounding of the keel against the hull punctured a hole below the sole and, water began to trickle inn. And, if the Coast Guard had not insisted on coming out to me from my initial “May Day! May Day!” I would never had known that my cabin had filled with 15 inches of water by the time they led me to the docks at the Golden Nugget Casino. That was the scariest night of my life and it took 6 months before I didn’t begin to cry every time I retold the story. Haha. Your posts are the greatest!

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    • Great story, Scott! Sorry for the bad luck. That was definitely not the night to play the slots at the Golden Nugget Casino.
      Isn’t it amazing how our individual dramas seem to soften with time? At the time, I thought hitting the rock in Stamford Harbor was the end of the world. Then Bambi walked into the room and I wasn’t quite as concerned about the hole in my boat.
      Thank you for following Flying Fish.

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  5. Jeffrey, THIS is your best of best postings! You are the most creative writing I read. You can paint the most detailed image with so few words. Your skills in writing are so incredible. What a great story. You ARE a wild child! I am scared to make these runs in my Island Packet and here you were on your homemade boat!!!! Wow! I knew you pasted the Cape May Point due to the fast current of the Delaware Bay. How wild is that. Then to run NYC and He’ll Gate into the sound. That is really difficult. What a fantastic story. I can not wait for your many books. I want signed copies aboard Island Spirit!!!
    Hayden…off Antigua

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    • Thank you so much Hayden! Your enthusiasm always makes my efforts worthwhile. As a footnote, in my nativity, (I was such a numbnuts) I had no idea of the power of the outgoing current in Delaware Bay. I guess the mistakes we make are all a part of the education.

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  6. Jeff Along with your sailing skills and an adventure seeker You are an incredible writer.I do enjoy anything you put the pen to.I can’t help but wonder what became of BAMBI.Happy sails and hope the wind stays at yourback

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  7. I don’t believe I ever heard of this early adventure before. What a beautiful story and so well written. To think that, with all your experience, you let me sail the Hobie Cat the year we won the Tequila Regatta 🙂

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  8. What a great story. Not sure what I liked the most…the sailing adventure or the “lost love” story. Wonder where Bambi is these days 😀 Stay safe out there and keep on writing.

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  9. Ah Jeffrey, I remember Icarus very well. What a wonderful story this is! I also remember your desolate phone call…”..Mom, my boat is sinking”. But as usual, you managed. I’m sure Mr. Ames’ daughter was also kind of enchanted with the cute boy who went shipwrecked in her town and was staying at her house! No wonder Mrs Ames quickly went to work. Well, don’t pick up a cute Syrian girl as she looks at you over her veil. Remember you ‘re married!

    Love you lots, Mom

    Sent from my iPad

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  10. Hi Jeffery,

    You are just full of surprises. We had no idea about the extent of your lust for adventure and lack of fear of the unknown. That story was incredible and your trip around the world has provided us with a view of the world better than we could have imagined. This trip has been the best we have ever been on and look forward to whats next and a safe trip to the keys.
    Tight lines and God be with with you

    Love Ed and carol

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    • I am a firm believer that life should be full of surprises. Of course, there may be a few surprises we will want to forget about later but that’s part of the deal. We take the good with the bad, and are grateful for all of it.
      You both have always encouraged me. Thank you.

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  11. How wonderful that your tale was available to French readers. Love that. And I really enjoy your posts! What a book it will make along with your photographs.

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